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Jul. 25th, 2006 06:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
second_bananaWoe is YouTube. Not because it is lacking in wonderfulness, because I'm very certain that it isn't. But people on my flist keep linking to awesome things on YouTube and my internet is TOO SLOW to watch 90% of them. So I'm a little sad. My internet has not been full of love. It has been cutting out on me and going very very slow. I have lost a dozen comments or so, so if I haven't left you a comment in a while, that's probably why. It's not that I am not full of love for you!
Oh transitional times. I am very very frustrated with life right now. I am living with my parents in the interim between quiting Linfield and starting at Birthingway. Basically the name of the game right now is save as much money as possible so I can afford to live in Portland when the time comes. None of this is helped by the knowledge that for the next three months my Dad will still be in training for an administrative career in Nursing homes and while that is going on my family is literally not making enough money to cover basic expenses. We are dipping into savings at every turn because we don't make enough to cover the bills. Oh the guilt!
I am working, but that has its own set of pitfalls and things to over come. Mostly coworker drama and being the new girl.
All in all things are pretty good. I know where I am headed is where I need to go. I really do trust the universe to provide me with the things I need. But this hurry up and wait business is killing me.
List O' woes:
Slow internet.
Lack of contact with people my age.
Lack of contact with people who value the same things I do.
No alone time.
No cell phone reception at my house.
Having only a stick shift I don't really know how to operate to drive.
Trying to figure out student loan crap when all of my lenders are too busy trying to "sell" me something to answer my questions. Grrrr!
My hours are not stable so my income is not stable meaning budgeting is a freaking nightmare.
Okay. I think I'm done. I just needed to vent a little. All in all the problems are small and I'm hopping this helps me put them into perspective.
On the up side, Sunday I went to an all day event at Birthingway College of Midwifery called "So You Want to be a Midwife?" and damn it, I do! Every time someone on one of the panels talked I just thought "yeah, I can do this and I *want* to do this." So yay for affirmations!
~Susan
Oh transitional times. I am very very frustrated with life right now. I am living with my parents in the interim between quiting Linfield and starting at Birthingway. Basically the name of the game right now is save as much money as possible so I can afford to live in Portland when the time comes. None of this is helped by the knowledge that for the next three months my Dad will still be in training for an administrative career in Nursing homes and while that is going on my family is literally not making enough money to cover basic expenses. We are dipping into savings at every turn because we don't make enough to cover the bills. Oh the guilt!
I am working, but that has its own set of pitfalls and things to over come. Mostly coworker drama and being the new girl.
All in all things are pretty good. I know where I am headed is where I need to go. I really do trust the universe to provide me with the things I need. But this hurry up and wait business is killing me.
List O' woes:
Slow internet.
Lack of contact with people my age.
Lack of contact with people who value the same things I do.
No alone time.
No cell phone reception at my house.
Having only a stick shift I don't really know how to operate to drive.
Trying to figure out student loan crap when all of my lenders are too busy trying to "sell" me something to answer my questions. Grrrr!
My hours are not stable so my income is not stable meaning budgeting is a freaking nightmare.
Okay. I think I'm done. I just needed to vent a little. All in all the problems are small and I'm hopping this helps me put them into perspective.
On the up side, Sunday I went to an all day event at Birthingway College of Midwifery called "So You Want to be a Midwife?" and damn it, I do! Every time someone on one of the panels talked I just thought "yeah, I can do this and I *want* to do this." So yay for affirmations!
~Susan
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Date: 2006-07-26 02:27 am (UTC)YAY for being so secure in your life's goals! I wish I'd been that way at your age.
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Date: 2006-07-26 04:45 pm (UTC)I'd suggest getting out of the house some more, if you can. Go for walks in the park, read in a cafe - do things that will help you feel less isolated and more in touch with people/nature. I should do more of those things, myself. Funny how good suggestions for what *I* should do always come up when I'm thinking of ways other people might be happier. ;)