So freaking scared. etc.

[second_banana]

A month and a half ago my mom had a hysterectomy for uterine cancer. Well, after they pulled everything out they found another spot. They are talking chemo now. I'm absolutely terrified of what this means. We all thought this would be over after the surgery. This may stop my mom from going back to work in August (she's an elementary school office manager) and working gives her a sense of purpose. I'm scared shitless and I would appreciate any thoughts, prayers, good vibes anyone is willing to send my way.

Right now I'm working in an assisted care facility. I take care of old people. I'm loving my job. The residents are really nice and I feel like I'm doing something worthwhile with my time. The only downside is that I'm mostly on call, meaning that my hours are unpredictable and I have no way to know how much money I will actually be making this summer.

I have no idea what to do for my birthday. I'll be 20 on July 17th. Any ideas?

I'll post something more upbeat soon. You all are in my thoughts.

~Susan

Comments

[montmorency.livejournal.com]

Keep hopeful, whatever you do. It sounds like a very nerve-wracking time, yet there's still a great chance she will come through this absolutely fine. She's lucky (as I'm sure she knows) to have a daughter who cares so much and is there for her when she needs it.

*big hugs and best wishes for a healthy mom*

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

*hugs you back*

My entire family is very close. We take good care of each other. We should be finding out within the week exactly how bad (or good) things are looking. Hope is a very good thing.

[piperbelle.livejournal.com]

Yes, stay hopeful. So many people beat cancer, many quite miraculously. There is no reason why that can't be your mom! I'll say a prayer right away and be thinking about you. *hugs*

Re. birthday: when I was your age (snicker, how old am I?!) it was all about getting free drinks downtown. Your birthday is the perfect excuse to skip the line-ups, cover charge and even paying for drinks! Now, it's more about dinner and the company of family and friends. I almost always have Chinese food with a carrot cake birthday cake (long story).

I hope you have fun for the big day. Try not to worry about your mom too much. Stay positive!

*big squishy hugs*

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

*huggles you*

Hehehe. I can't booze it up on my birthday because I have to work the next morning. Very early the next morning. Blech!

[mongoluehring.livejournal.com]

That is extremely scary news about your mom, sweetie. I'll send all kinds of positive energy your way. *huggles*

You probably don't want to take my advice on what to do for your birthday, since my own birthdays always suck. However, since you asked...I always try to take a look at where I am in my life, where I was, and where I'd like to be, then make plans to get there. For fun, I do something frivolous (movie, dinner out, etc) with someone I love. Have a lovely birthday, in any event!

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

*snuggles Mongo*

Thanks for the energy. We all could use it right about now.

[newbieblueberry.livejournal.com]

Oh Susan...*hugs*

Im not much for words lately, my brain has pretty much shut down due to lack of school. Just remember that we all love you and we know things will get better.



As for your birthday...its right before mine, and I think a bunch of us are going to Escape in Portland, if you want to go ;)

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

*hugs the Newbie*

Thank you, hon. It means a lot to me. Hmmm... P-town... I may have to take you up on that.

[(Anonymous)]

By Escape..I ment..Club Escape..hehehe

[newbieblueberry.livejournal.com]

By Escape..I ment..Club Escape..hehehe

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

I gathered. But I have semi-alterior motives for wanting to be in Portland.

[stewardess.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. My dad had bladder cancer. It was scary as hell, but now it's twenty years after his surgery and he's doing fine. Uterine cancer is a scary cancer but it is also completely curable with surgery and chemo and has no risk of re-occurrence.

*gives you a Hoot hug*

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

Ooooh! Hoot hugs are good.

Thank you so much for your support. It means a lot to hear from people who have been through this kind of scared.

[grenciamars.livejournal.com]

Here is some manlove to make you feel better: http://portfolio.iu.edu/messex/DSCN0279.MOV

but seriously, be strong and you'll be giving her the best support possible. Be glad they've at least spotted it early so they can administer the best care possible. ::hugs::

When are you off from work so I can call ya hun?

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

See... this is why I keep you around. *attack huggles you*

I will be sucked into writting a term paper these next few days, then I'm on call. *kicks on callness* I do answer my email like a fiend though.

[newbieblueberry.livejournal.com]

dude, if you wanted some hot man love, come see me and my BF..LOL!

[vejgurl.livejournal.com]

Just try to stay positive. Things like this are so unpredictable; it really could turn out all right.

Also, your mood will effect your mother's. The more you worry, the more she will.

And it's great that you're doing something you enjoy that makes you feel good about yourself. Personally, I think that's far more important than a steady income.

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. I'm trying to stay as positive as I can. My mom and I have had several good talks and are supporting eachother as much as anyone else.

[orkilatrish.livejournal.com]

Susan, I will be thinking about you and your family and sending some good ol' camp orkila love in your direction!

[konstant-motion.livejournal.com]

*gives great big hugs all around*

I love you Susan, you and your mother are incredible people and I know you'll get through this just fine. Send her my love!!!

~C

[elvensorceress.livejournal.com]

It seems you've recieved lots of love and hugs and happy thoughts, so you probably don't need mine. You do have them though.

I miss you.

[second-banana.livejournal.com]

I need yours probably more than anyone elses. I miss you too.

[elvensorceress.livejournal.com]

Well, you have lots of them.

Love you.